The cries of my heart...

Oh my girl... my darling girl... As parents, we're truly sorry for coming back late every night for the past 3 nights. Sometimes, we just couldn't help it. Perhaps, that alone made you uncomfortable and sad. Perhaps you knew, but all of us adults don't. We tried to comfort you, but sometimes to no avail. Last night, when mummy heard your cries, it saddens mummy because it sounded different from what i used to hear when i was around you. Your cries seemed to reach the limit, making it sounded like you were crying a lot much earlier and causing your voice to change. It looked as though you were crying, but yet there were no more tears. It truly saddens mummy to see you like that.

That was exactly how i felt last night when i saw her sleeping peacefully. It was already about 2am then. I couldn't really sleep until about 2.30am because there were just so many things to think about and to pray. She slept through the night last night - perhaps too tired. What i felt deeply was that she could sense both our presence and that alone brought change to her soul & spirit - giving her security & peace to sleep right through the night. She's a good girl. I know she is. I've no doubt about that at all. She cries when she's hungry or when she feels alone and perhaps insecure. Sometimes, we just don't understand why she cry so much at times. But i know deep down, she was needing something... or someone... to be with so she doesn't feel alone.

Lord, i pray that You would hear the cries of my heart. I do not want to make decisions that i would later regret. Grant us wisdom to raise this child the way You want us to. Help us to see her needs so that we can provide what is best for her. Lord, i pray that she will be happy at all times and be at peace. It saddens us to see her sad and cry for something we can provide but yet fail again & again. Help us to be better father & mother to this baby girl. Connect us with her. Connect her grandparents with her. Connect her with all of us and with You - In Jesus' name i pray, Amen!